Affecting my life!

hey Frank.

It is late for me too, but I do want to send you a note before I head to
bed. First, I want to thank you for the thoughtfulness of your notes. Some
people would not have engaged in a conversation with me on learning that I
am gay.

As for your not being able to understand why anyone would be attracted to
men, that is probably a good thing. It seems to define the difference
between you and me and between you and women. I do honestly believe that
before much longer, it will be proven that being gay is a genetic
disposition. (...deleted...) I have
tried hard in my life not to be gay, and have been a womanizer before I quit
trying to be someone I was not. I am not proud of that, but it is my
reality. My point being, if you found men attractive, that would imply that
being gay could be a choice and I don't think it is. I forced myself to be
"straight" to prove to myself that I wasn't gay and to prove to my dad that
I was able to carry on the family name. In the long run, I learned that my
true nature was different from those of my friends who had children. I am
so glad that I learned who I am before I ended up married and with kids.

I love C. S. Lewis as a linguist and writer. I thought I had read most of
his work, but see now that I have more reading to do.

I honor and respect your beliefs, even when I don't agree with them. For
me, your path to enlightenment is the path you are on and I feel happiness
for you. My path is a different one, but I think that one reason that God
has let me survive HIV for 20 years now is so that I can meet people like
you and we can learn from one another. I think that both of our souls are
learning and that to me is redemption and forgiveness. We will both get
were we are meant to be.

Safe journeys, my friend.

Ron